No longer angry. No longer furious. Just hurt.

I was sat with Rach when we were facebooking. She got an email from a leader at our church about the bowling night we had.

It was filled with snide remarks about how myself and my friends dealt with a problem.

In the most basic, no details way of writing, one of our friends put us on a major emotional rollercoaster, and it was the first time we properly saw them since.

The people who knew what was going on wanted to punch him. When one of us needed to go to the bathroom, we ended up staying there, hiding i guess. I refused to let my temper be the better of me, so i stayed there.

Im fifteen. I cant deal with huge emotional stress in the way my youth leader apparently wants me to, because she went on to tell Rachel how immature we were, acted like five year olds, and we were obviously the reason why her daughter didnt want to come when we act like we do.

Firstly, i know her daughter, she's lovely. I dont know her that well, but she's close to some of the other people at bowling, so its more likely she doesnt want to go for other reasons im not going to post on a blog.

Secondly, she had none of the stress from dealing with it, however old she is. She then made no attempt to explain it to us, and had no business saying what she said.

The reason im so annoyed though is probably because though she wasnt my favourite youthleader, she was someone i trusted, and she pretended to understand what we meant when we explained how she felt. She then went behind our backs.

Im sick of the double faces people keep pulling. Im sick of the Church not making any effort to help out when something major happens. Im sick of having to be careful who i talk to.


GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR*!!!!!!!!!

It hurt quite alot more than i thought it would.

So i replied to her email.

I was calm, i explained why i was upset.

And have yet recieved no response.

So.

To be continued....








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