I went to a form of therapy last night, for my self harming.
It was crap to be honest, completly useless, but Mum thinks i should go a few times to be sure...Which i think is just a waste of money, but still.

Umm i like this new layout i have. The quotes are from a song by Dave Matthews, which you seriously should listen to, its actually amazing =)

I am very much in love with Miss Sadie Hays, who should blatently slap the butlers for being idiots towards her =(

And i appear to have reverted back to being convinient.

Im sick of people changing how they act, because its not as cool to be friends with me in certain circles.

Im sick of people havin a go at me for nothing

Im sick of people acting like the friendship we have is just convinient. A way to be sure theyre never alone, but nothing more, and making me feel like i was a fool for believing otherwise.

Im really fed up with wanting to cut and knowing i shouldnt.

Im fed up with God moving in leaps and bounds in everyones life, and yet my attempt to communicate with him failed miserably.

Im fed up with pretending i belong at church now...I blatently dont, and now im not 'needed' or wanted, im actually wondering why i go.

Im sick of sitting in silence because people dont realise how broken up about it i am.

And im really really really fed up because when i say people, i actually mean one person.

Pfffffffffft.

Aint life grand?