When the pain sets in
and your heart stops beating.
When the tears begin to fall...
that's when it ends.

When the voices in your head tell you youre worthless
and you believe them.
When your head feels like it could explode...
That's when it ends.

When in the crowd of your friends
and the lonliness kills you.
When nothing can help you...
That's when it ends.

Roseanna Shefford, You are loved.

You have a sense of humour that noone can beat. You speak your own language that everyone understands. You are my friend...You're beautiful and humble, loved and amazing. You have amazing shoes in real life, as well as figuratively that noone can fill. You look stunning whatever you do. You can take something small and boring and make it beautiful and interesting, funny and entertaining. You have made me smile nearly every day that i have known you. You have the trust of so many people. You are my friend. I love you.



Sophie Duncan, You are loved.

You are quiet but engaging. Loud but not rude. You are my friend. Your mind works in the most amazing ways, you have amazing thoughts. You always look beautiful. You can make me laugh when im at my lowest. You dont judge people because of what other people say. You give chances, you're independant, you're my friend. You're my rock. You are trusted. You are amazing. You're my friend. I love you.



Ellie Rowan, You are loved.

You are insane in the most amazing way. You are part of the most amazing Trio of Mamma Mia dancers. Youre not afraid to be who you are. You are beautiful and always look amazing. You make me forget my worries and have fun. You are a friend when needed. You make ordinary situations something extraordianry. You're my friend. I love you.



Laura Flemming, You are Loved.

You are one of the most beautiful people I know. You are honest and free. You bring smiles and excitement. You're sweet and loved. You care for people always, your heart is huge. You are a thousand things i couldnt even begin to describe....You're my friend. I love you.



Jodie Baker, You are Loved.

You have a way of making something unique. You can take an idea and mould it into something beautiful. You are beautiful. You're a presence missed when not around. You have a huge heart for loving and friendship....You're my friend. I love you.



Sadie Hays, You are loved.

You have the most contagious smile and laugh. You are a true friend, you help people when they need it and you're always there for them. You are beautiful. You have a way of accepting people and always being the bigger person. You are too cool. You are gorgeous. You're my friend. I love you.


Charlotte Hooban, You are loved.

You are stunning. You are extremely intelligent. You can make light of any situation that needs you. You're not afraid to have fun. You can make people feel welcome and loved really quickly. You're someone people can talk to. You're the sunshine kid. You're my friend. I love you.


Katie Stead, You are loved.

You are a Godly inspiration. You are so pretty its not even fair. You have the artists eye and have a way of making things beautiful. You are smart and gorgeous and an inspiration. You're my friend. I love you.


Leila Nashef, You are loved.

You are one of the smartest people I know. You can make a person smile from a mile away. You are stunningly beautiful. You have a way with English and Drama that makes the story come alive. You are my main rival in debates. You are clever and beautiful and funny and happy. You have a happy book that brings happiness to anyone who reads it, not just you. You make the world go round with your fun. You're my friend. I love you.


Emmy Fennell, You are Loved
You are a stunning girl with a beautiful heart for God. You can make me smile and any point, you can take time to just chill and laugh. You arent afraid to laugh and you're so awesomesauce, you fill the bottle up and we need a whole new one. You're so brave, and I'm so proud of you. You're my friend. I love you.


Jasper Alexander, You are loved.

You are too intelligent for your own good. You have an amazing sense of humour, and an annoying way of making too much sense. You have a quick mind and are an amazing friend. You don't give up hope and i admire you. You're my friend. I love you.


Andrew Bunting, You are loved.

You are too clever, but you take time to care for others. You can bring a smile in seconds. You have an amazing sense of humour, and you look out for people. You are a somewhat hot ginger. You can fit in with any body and you rarely speak negativly. You're friendly and a friend. You're my friend. I love you.


I could go on, but i now really have to revise. To be continued, perhaps. =)

Life isnt simple any more.

Excitement still is :) Which it probably shouldnt be. I mean, swings still put the biggest smile on my face ever. As do shiney things.

But i cant get my head around anything right now.

I started a diary again a few weeks ago. It only has two entries. Because i wrote one, and realised how everything i wrote, i wasnt sure about.

Was it like this, or that, or should i react like this, or that, how is it, what is it, what does it mean? Etc.

Jasper commented on saturday I had changed. The best way he could describe it was that I was happier...

Unfortunatly it just means that ive got better at not being so.

Im so lost and confused about practically everything. Whether its the devil, or me, i dont know. Im suddenly realising things and questioning them.

For example, I realised I have no close friends in school.

I have a lot of friends. But no really close friends.

I have noone that i can talk to about whats bothering me.

Apart from when i post it on the internet, which is apparently what im doing.

I'm in so much trouble at the moment with myself. I cant place it, i cant work it out, and noone wants to care.

I cant blame them obviously..."You can only blame your problems on the world for so long, before it all becomes the same old song". I cant ask or expect them to listen.

I just wish I knew what i was doing at the moment.

Is it strange that the two people I want to talk to most right now, not about problems, but just to make me feel better in general, one is in Surrey and one is in Exeter?

If its not strange, it sucks.

plergh.

Rant over.

Did you know i have a new best friend?
She's stunningly pretty
She's an amazing artist.
She's amazingly clever =)
She's totally awesome for God
She's dating one of my very awesome friends (And so together they are even more awesome =P)
I love her very very very much =P

And her name is Katie Stead...And I stole her from Hooban =D

I'm sure God wont mind me coveting in this instance =P