Today was really nice =)
Well. The morning was a tad strange. But I went out this afternoon with Jasper, which was truely lovely =) And my christmas present from him was a U2 CD that he loves. I'm really looking forward to listening to it to be honest. It'll be interesting...and something to talk about if we ever run out of conversation if nothing else =)
So tomorrow is Christmas Eve, meaning that the day after is Christmas.
And all of this December, I've been trying to work out if that means something.
So the majority of my Christmas' have been spent as an atheiest, which means that it was the season I enjoyed rather than the meaning. I still used to get the fuzzy feeling...YOu know, the one you get when you watch Love Actually or the Muppets Christmas Carol. Its just friendly and familiar, and nice =). I always enjoyed Christmas. I was never a spoilt kid overly, I got and still get one main present a year from my parents, so this year its a Guitar, last year it was my iPod, the year before it was a camera...etc. But that would be it from them, I would ask the rest of my family for anything else. So christmas was never really, for me, about the gifts.
As bloomin cheesey as it sounds (Does cheesy have two E's or three??) I always loved Christmas because I'm an old romantic, and thought it was beautiful.
I can remember being really young and loving Christmas because all the family disputes stopped for the day, all the family would be gathered in one room, noone would care that a member of the family was divorcing someone (Which, for some reason, when it happened was a massive no-no) or that the company of one family member was truely terrible, it was just everyone sat around with cheesy over-played Christmas music on the stereo, random I-saw-it-and-thought-of-you-gifts in front of everyone, and the same meal on the table.
It was safe and stable. Christmas was when you could actually see love.
So then I became a christian and it all had a whole new meaning. I mean, I had a heart attack when mum was listening to Oh Come All Ye Faithful (Listen to the Third Day version. I mean it. Do it now.), because at first it didnt click it was Christmas music- I just heard Christian music. Jesus was being praised and the praise-ee didnt even realise!
I then began to see the comercial side of it. How people make money from people in this season with over-priced pointless goods, without a heart for the true meaning of Christmas.
And because Jebus was born in March, I cant really sing happy birthday now can I?
I mean...Has anyone heard the advert on Heart Cambridge by Hope Cambridge? Its a countdown of whats important at christmas.
Its awesome. Number one, of course, is my favourite baby Jebus =)
So Im still tryng to work out what it actually means to me.
And I think I may have worked it out...
Its like it used to be when I was young. Its spreading Love.
Cheessssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
I know.
But still.
I have a point =)
If for one day at christmas, with one present, with one smile, or hug, for just a second, one person can feel loved, surely its perfect?
You can see love at christmas.
Ever seen Noels Christmas Presents?
If you give that a 'meh' then you're like me. I hadnt watched it, assumed it would be another Rich Persons excuse to give some people some holidays they could probably already afford.
It wasnt. It was amazing. The thought put into some of the ideas....The true joy that the recipicants got from them...I nearly cried.
Key word nearly. I'm not that bad =P
And I've stuck mostly to the idea this year. Because I gave gifts that would cheer people up or make them smile. Granted, not all of them were any where near as good as i would like, but most of them were personal and were to make people smile.
I have no idea if it worked. But i hope it did. That was the intention.
I must leave this blog with a perfect quote from my favourite film =)
A cup of kindess that we share with another
A sweet reunion with a friend or a brother
In all the places you find love it feels like Christmas
It is the season of the heart
A special time of caring
The ways of love made clear
