I think I might just have felt happy.

Properly happy, for the first time in a while.

And I'm sixteen! Wooo! =D

To be honest, theres no difference between being 15 and 16, apart from the height that comes from the new boots I got...=D =P

Last friday, I got pretty much bribed into going to Rendezvous. However you spell it. Anyway, as I panic in new situations- I mean the Tobias thing was ridiculous- I managed to drag Sophie and Andrew to come with me so that I wasnt alone.

And it was amazing.
I've wanted to hang out with Sophie properly again for AGES, it sucks that its so hard, but its why Redezvous was so great. I blew up some balloons, fought with (and lost to) the coffee machine, played a terrifying version of Table Tennis (Though nowhere near as good as the one I played with Leanne a few weeks ago, where she wanted to talk to me and kept hitting the ball really hard to make rachel run after it so we could talk in private...And so by pure accident, Rachels next shot hit her square between the eyes. NICE =P), I played pool for the first time, I laughed at the total weirdness, I commented on a game, i made some strange drink, I heard way too much detail about James' sex life, I distracted people who needed distracting, and It was the first time I wasnt lonely in something like that. I could trust myself, I felt good and okay, rather than scared.

But I only went because I wanted Roseanna to come to Ellies sleepover, so that we could all hang out, the three of us, and she said if i gave her a lift home then she would ask.

So then cambridge the next day with Ellie. MY GOODNESS i missed that fish. I love how random our conversations or thoughts or actions become, even when we actually had to shop for her. I love that I finally have a picture of the three of us, looking ridiculous but really happy. I love that the three of us just got to have a laugh, that we were just us.
And the fact Ellie was working so hard on the can-can with her fingers was just impressive =P

And Awww the starbucks guy! I know its really stupid, but the guy was so lovely, it proper made my day =)

We went to Matts also, which was horrific =P I had Tim Minchin in my bag, cause I took it for the sleepover, and Matt made me watch it with his parents also.
CRINGE =P


The sleepover itself was also truely awesome, though very very different to our usual =P
Ellies Dad kept making us laugh with his random comments, we had Mamma Mia on TV.

Ellie also brought her guitar.

For my birthday present, Fishy wrote me a birthday song. And it proper made me feel really loved, it was so nice- the fact she took the effort, it was really sweet and I proper love it =)

We also watched Finding Nemo, which I had never seen but loved =)

I loved that it was just chilled, the three of us, not having to put up a pretense, just having a laugh all the time.

And thats probably why I enjoy spending time with the two of them so much =)



So being in this stupidly happy mood, I began to look forward to my birthday for the first time ever. I've never been excited about it before =D
I got a little put-out on tuesday though, cause five of my intimate circle friends had told me that they hadnt bothered to get me anything yet. I wasnt being selfish, I was just a bit... I dunno. Put out they hadnt made the effort i guess =D

But to be honest, I got a bit ambushed by people and presents and the such, to the point I felt well loved, nearly all of the presents were personal and thoughtful and just generally really nice =)

It was nice =)

So now I'm sixteen, I feel no different, but actually, I feel a little bit loved now =) x