So. I gave up my grudge.

The one against the guy who messed me up that is =)

Only...I feel a hell of alot worse for it.

I thought it would be easier if I just blamed it on myself and moved on with it, which is how I normally deal with it.

Only it just feels really crappy, and not right.

Everything seems to have changed...Only noone really seems to have noticed because its all so subtle.

It sucks, to be perfectly honest.

And yes, this is a somewhat depressing post, but I try to balance out my happy posts with my rubbish posts...Hence why I havent blogged in a long time. Just havent felt overly happy I guess.

And I'm officially not getting baptised.