Little Less Sixteen

I'm bubbly

I love to laugh

I find sex jokes funny

I like to sit with my caffeine

I make stupid noises when something surprising happens.

I enjoy playing guitar

I'm crap at playing guitar

I spend hours talking to friends, and if they matter enough, I talk when I should be sleeping

I like sitting and listening without having to say something.

I like to know who is in control.

I like dancing like an idiot

I like singing songs that cheer me up

I hate showing weakness

I will never do homework before its due

I have no idea how to do maths now

I love getting drenched in the rain

I love making other people smile

I flap my hands when I find something weird

I flap my arms when I find something exciting

I'm happiest when I'm at work

I have terrible music taste

I make up stupid nicknames for people

I'm a starbucks addict

I think this is me.

I've always disliked who I was in the past, the bitch, the pushover, the idiot...

But I realised yesterday, after making a somewhat stupid mistake, the title- which, for the record, is a song, albiet a bad one- is my motto for every day.

Each day I find a flaw in myself and attempt to reinvent some part of me. Experiment. The person I am now is completely different to the person I was a few years ago. Just as I am entirely different from who I was last month.

I dislike how my mind thinks quite alot that my friends are in for the ride, or are friends with a regeneration of long ago. It makes things more interesting, because for a long time I tried to change who I was every day to try to make up for it.

Now though, I genuinely dream about people liking me for who I think I am.

And the list up above is who I think that is at the moment.

This might be why I value the friendship of the externals so much, because they know the most recent version of me.

Hmm :) It was just something which made me think :)