I thought I had a cold....
I was wrong.

I thought I had man-flu...
I was wrong.

I learnt I had Hoobs Flu...
The deathly strain of cold, so named after Hooban's intense suffering, far worse than any man flu that might come about, more difficult to get rid of than any cold before it. I am, essentially, dying.

Well, at the rate Hooban complained about hers when she had it, I should be :)

Realised I havent blogged since... Well. I cant be bothered to go check, but it feels like ages ago. Got a text from Ben saying he'd spent the time reading through my blog and so I panicked, thinking actully, I had no idea what was on here. Yikes. Update time.

So my exams I think went okay, bar one which I know went horrifically badly. My last philosophy paper was iffy, and knowing how hard the exam was last year, I'm not going to do anywhere near as well as I would have liked. Argh.

However, since I finished, I've been at work more, long shifts over the past two days. I agree with what one of my bosses says, that we're not sectionised, we just gel together. Obviously its a bit strange between the people I never work with, but hopefully its getting better.
I like it. I love my job. I love the customers who make me laugh, like the guy who was telling me about his weekend, or the old lady going on her first coach trip. There are so many customers I adore, its just the few that bug me. The one who shouted at me to get my supervisor, and when he came out to try to help, supported me- for the customer to shout angrily at both of us and claim he'd never use our store again. Or the two that just acted disgusted by being in our store at all. The people who snatch things away from you, or tell you how to do your job. The ones who trample over the freakin fantastic customer service we're pushed to provide.
Mum always asks me about my shifts when I come out, so I usually do the highlights of my nice customers and my rubbish customers. Of the rubbish ones, she always says something along the lines of "Can you believe people act like that? We live in a rude society, and the annoying thing, is that they get something out of it at the end of it." Problem is, that yes, I do beleive people are like that. The more forceful you are the more it seems you get. Why then, should anyone be polite, if they get less from it?
Most of the time I don't care enough to think about it, but really, its stupid. Rudeness gets rewarded. Customers get appeased. We try to hard to be fantastic for every customer, and they take advantage of that. Argh.

As is probably obvious from my long rant, I take such pride in my work. I'm so proud of myself when I reach the targets I set, and I try to learn something new each time I'm in. I love talking to new people, I love the laughs that I get from the people I work with.


Ergh, I hate being Ill. My thought processes are all over the place, my blog is jumping from thought to thought and I'm not even sure I'm making sense. I hate being like this. I feel all fragile and not like myself. Like I cant stick up for myself. Ergh.

Cba to blog now. Will blog when it makes sense. Lovee

Step right up, step right up
For the greatest show of confidence in the world
She who appears to have the heart of stone
Watch it crack, before your very eyes!
See the walls crumble for your amusement,
watch the waterworks begin when you press the right button,
and guess what- its all for you!
For you, the lovely audience, she will laugh and cry
But can you make her stay broken forever?
She picks up the peices fast!
Give it a shot! Why not? Its free for all, and garunteed good fun!
Break the unbreakable!

Are a complete douche. Until you can adequately justify the horrific lapse in judgement resulting in the emotional pain of my closest friend, you may consider yourself ignored.

Many (- and by that, I mean no-) thanks,
Charlie.
Smileyfacekiss.

Things are changing. Suddenly. Quickly. And I don't like it.

Two of my closer friends have decided they wont come back to sixth form next year. Which, is a tad gutting. I would encourage them to do so, because they'd get so much more elsewhere, and they have direction and hate where they are, but... that means they wont be there. I'm not gonna be able to piss about in my frees with Joe, or laugh at my misfortune in philosophy with him. I'm not gonna be able to walk with him to town if we get bored.
Same with Keiron. No coffee, no bitching. Noone to laugh with in school, or to chat about the stupidest of things. No more manwhore :P

I know its not like I'm not gonna see them again, but its not the same as seeing them every day. The more I think of it the more gutted I get. I just have to cling to Claire and make sure she doesn't leave, no idea what I'd do without her.

Then people leave. Roseanna leaves for university. My year 11 friends go on study leave. I end up alone on the bus. Which is fine, 'cause half the time I just want to sleep anyway, but its another change. Another confusion.

I don't know whether I should change stuff myself. Or just keep plodding along. It works, does plodding, but its not as fun.

I'm bored of school and sixth form. I want to do something different. But I know I'm one of those people doomed and destined to education. I have no other options, I'm academic and thats it. I get bored to quickly. I'll have to go to university, 'cause I don't know what else to do. I have to become a teacher, because I have no other interests and theres no point wasting university education. I don't even want to be a teacher, its just my only logical option. I just pray I enjoy it.

I'm bored now. Watching the boyf and his best mate play xbox leads to exciting times. I should be revising.
Fucking responsibilities :/

Slut Walking
I like this article. It's one which shows not only that people realise the significance of the words, but that people will unite together when they have a cause.

I understand it seems a strange cause, but honestly, its worth it. The victim being blamed is consistant in the stories I read, and it irritates me. Like the article says, no means no, and too many people don't respect that. This article shows that they should.

Use of Sperm
This article made me question my views on design. The guy has a point, if it really is so helpful in so many things, how much does it show how sacred it really is?
I hate that word, because it means it's going religious again, but I'm sure you see my point. I actually like his quote, for which he got so epically told off.

Sex Education

This was to me, just cute. How innocent youth can be and how awkward that innocence can be for adults too scared to rob it from them.

Sex Education is Useful

This I found was really down to earth. The woman seems to have the same grounding and sense that I have when it comes to thoughts like this. I found it particularly interesting how she commented that teenage pregnancy is down to its lowest since the 1980s. So all these measures to stop teenagers having sex are pointless- making it safe is the better and more effective option.



When I wake up in the morning, in an attempt to make myself open my eyes, I log onto The Guardian Website and read the Most Read of that day. Its actually pretty interesting, what with the AV and Osama stuff at the moment, but there're lots of quirky and nice little articles. I did used to look only at Psychology pages, but i spread my spectrum to include whatever.

What I found interesting was how many were about sex, and the ideas on it. Some got annoyed with sexual liberalism, whilst some thought conservative views on it were pointless. I keep thinking how interesting it is that the views have changed so considerably that its something which can be discussed, and is newsworthy. While I know my Mum is pretty happy to discuss it with me, I know she wouldn't have dared with her own Mum. Her Dad would turn the TV off if cartoons started kissing.
I want to know what changed. There was a sexual revolution somewhere which threw out all of the old ideas, but why? What made people think differently on such a universal scale?

This, for some weird reason, is my procrastination from revision, and also from my severe boredom right now, but meh. Be proud I blogged.