So Its actually been a while since I wrote anything on here. There's not all that much I can complain about when I'm happy.

I love how my life has a knack of working itself out now. When things go bad, I can actually be optimistic and wait for the better times to come back. Which to be fair, they completely and utterly have, and its rare that I'm not wandering round smiling :)

I was feeling really really un-special recently. Really out of it and isolated and alone. I'm not that now.

I still crave peoples approval, but those people have been reduced. They're not everyone, they're just the people I really care about- Claire, Joe, Hoobs, Rach, Sam, Daniel, plus loads of others... They're the people who if they tell me I'm doing wrong, then I am. No question.

Its made me a lot more chilled out, alot less reliant on opinion. I'm just happy and content, and I don't care :)

Results are tomorrow though, which I'm dreading. I've looked into back ups and alternatives, so I'm prepared for what will come. Trying not to think about it...

My parents also go away soon. I'm half excited, half terrified. I've never been left alone before, and its for quite a while too... I cant cook, clean, or drive, so If i miss the bus I'm stuffed. It also means I'm not at work for a while, 'cause I just cant get there. Where work is usually my sanity...

I don't know :) I'm winging it at the moment. Hoobs, Joe and Claire have an open invite to my house. I expect Daniel will be around alot too. Then theres the wedding.

I'm a bit zoned and a bit tired, so this is just a rant of things which have been partially on my mind, so as per usual, I probably make no sense...