I'll delete this later, because I know when I calm down I'll regret it, and I hate when people bitch like this.


But for now, You know what? I'm done with being diplomatic.

There are times when yes, I can rationalise it to sort out in my head and make it all okay.

There are other times, like now, when I'm pissy and grumpy and I'm damn well angry about this pointless situation.

1- You have no idea how much it hurts that you haven't bothered to talk to me, and expect me to talk to you first every time. If you're planning to argue that I didn't make the effort, how many times have you text me first? You don't make conversations when I try to text you, you post all over facebook about something that you invited me too, which I'm apparently now not invited, and then you tell me its because you have spaces you're just seeing who attends. Thats besides the point about whether I'm invited or not.
I'm upset- but I'm not angry. I love you. I'm sorry I've just ranted about you unnecessarily. But I've just spent half an hour in tears so you can suck it up that I want to blog about it.

2- You get drunk and go mental at me. For some stupid excuse, lets be honest. You hadn't told me you had an issue with me, and then you go mental. Fucking pointless. You know if you'd've spoken to me about it I'd've listened? And now, you wont even look at me. You wont talk about me, I find out you've been bitching about me. Practically a week before I'd written a draft blog about how I'd loved how I'd got closer to you and you really felt like a friend. I'm such an idiot.

3- You confused me. I genuinely don't think we have issues. But you've blanked me since we've come back to school. Every time I've spoken to you, you've got out of the conversation as quick as possible. I'm probably most upset about losing you, because I don't understand why, and we've been friends for so long.

4- You barely even need a paragraph. You know we're not friends over something we could solve in a second. But you don't need me any more, and you've made that clear.

I'm such an idiot. And I'm a lonely idiot.