I don't think anyone, not even a top celebrity wedding planner, could create a wedding up to her standards.
Um. Why on earth is she on don't tell the bride then? Surely, should she be so pedantic about her wedding, she should...I don't know...Organise it herself? Yikes!

At the end of the day, the wedding day is most importantly a wedding, not a party. 
Well, yeah. This is true. But A) Your wedding should be a celebration, and B), The point surely should be the marriage? Being with someone you love no matter the day?

THAT'S MY DRESS!
Well no, it's not going to be, because your future hubby is going to pick a different one.

It's my dream dress!
Well why agree to let him pick another one then?


Wouldn't it be great if he picked the same one?
Um. A miracle. But don't rub it in, mother dear!

If he gets it wrong, I'm going to be like, 'How well do you know me?'
Considering you will have spent months agonising over which one, how he is supposed to pick one- when he cant ever see them on- that you specified?!

"I want you to think what I want, when you pick wedding dresses, not what looks good on you". (Bride to future sister in law)
...Bitch!

And then I stopped watching.

Oh dear. Oh dear oh dear.

I really don't care about my exam tomorrow.

Last year, I took philosophy, and drilled it into my brain. There wasn't an analogy, or a counter argument, or a past question I didn't know.

And for all my efforts, and A's in class, and feeling satisfied when coming out of the exam, I got a D.

In case you missed that, I got a D.

I have no issues with what grade I get, but it threw me a bit. Of the exams I thought I did badly in, Philosophy wasn't one of them at all. I thought B/C kind of grades, but not a D.

So I said I'd retake, and maybe the Uni's would ignore that I messed up initially.

And they did! Completely. They haven't set a reset grade mark. Which means it now doesn't matter what I get in this exam to be be able to go to Uni. So....I really CBA.

I'm drilling it into my brain again, I know loads of examples and ideas and names and quotes, but if I come out and it was a rubbish paper- I don't care. If I get a rubbish grade- I don't care. Its unnecessary.

All of it rested on Uni, and Uni doesn't care about it. So there's really no point.

I  keep dreaming about Sheffield Uni. It ticks every box so far, and I really really hope that when I go to see it, it lives up to expectations. My life is falling into place quite nicely.

The only thing I'm missing is girls. I mentioned it to Daniel and I didn't realise how much so, I've lost a lot of my outgoing-ness, because I hang around with my guys. And my guys are fantastic, they really are, I adore them, and out of the people I want to keep in touch with forever, they're the ones I'd pick. But I miss having a girly best friend, the one who you can tell everything. I have, granted, Rachel, and Ellie, and Roseanna, who are amazing, and I get that from them- but I so rarely see them, I almost forget how to.

It's one of the things I'm really looking forward to and hoping for in University, that I can find that again.

I am, when I think about it, excited for university. It's going to be epic! The more I talk about it the more I want to do well so I can go and enjoy it. Everything has the potential to fall perfectly into place, and I love the idea of it...

So...8 months?

If we were close enough, I would soooo highlight how silly you are :) <3

People seem to be writing New Years posts, so I feel I should follow suit.

The last year was very topsy turvy. I had some of the worst moments of my life, but indeed some of the best, and most perfect. I can't say I'd want to have this year all over again, but at least I wouldn't mind reliving the good bits. Like an annoying compilation tape :)

This year however, I'm going to make my year. My year. Purely because of the plans I have, and the back up plans I have, and the back up plan for my back up plan. I won't let anything go wrong this year.

Similarly, something that will happen this year will literally make my entire year. There's no way I'm going to allow anyone to take that happiness away from me.

I'm not floating on air happy, because that would mean everything was in place. But I'm down to earth happy- happy that I've got the life that I have, cautious, more than I like, of the future, but just happy. Very happy.

I'm with everyone who claims that nothing changes but the date, but if you can change your mind set, why not upon the changing of the year? I started this year with the man I love, and I intend to end it similarly.

SO.... Happy new year!